"Putting it together Piece by piece"-Part 2

Putting it together Piece by Piece

Part 2 Oh no!... Random people came up to me with their own diagnosis of what they think was happening to me. The more I tried to be that dream girl, the more insecure I became about myself.

I am really thankful for all my friends and family who stuck by then and now. Days and years passed i was finally relieved as school was over. Little did I know that was just the beginning of an another obstacle race. There were times when I'd lock myself up in a room , times when I dreaded social events, hated the idea of stepping out of my room only because of the fear of facing the reality. The Mirror became a reflection of the Sad Reality of an identity crisis which I had made up myself. We humans are really good at masking what we actually go through, with a plaster smile, So did I. But then one day I came across this verse from the Bible " For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11".Most of you would have come across an anchor of hope such as this, for some it would be a random flyer,an Instagram post, a newspaper clipping, a song lyric, Some TEDx Talk, Your Grandparent's words, Maybe a strangers testimony. But for me it was this verse that gave me the energy to move on. College was a reflection of my initial childhood struggles.I started on the Journey to become a "Respiratory therapist" even before I knew what i signed up for. I was on the constant quest to find out those "Plans" Which in the verse says would give me hope and a Future. But the future seemed so blurry . I started feeling out of breath after a flight of stairs , to an extreme that one fine day in 2018 I had to succumb to a lower respiratory tract infection. Imagine getting admitted along with the patients you are treating and taking all the therapy you usually administer ,for your own self.

That's when I realized what it felt like to be really on the other side as a patient, It was an eye opener I realized I had wasted my entire childhood, teenage and now my early years of youth just worrying about things that

really didn't matter. .. To be continued...